Sunday, February 16, 2014
I did not want to do today's LOAD prompt. It is Sunday. Usually on Sunday's, I listen to my favorite music radio program and do mixed media, cards or some other crafty experimental thing. In other words, I play even more than usual.
Today's prompt was to scrap about something difficult in your life. That does not fit into my fun day plans. So I did the best I could and made a mixed media page. My topic is turning 50 in a couple of months.
The hard part was doing the journaling. That is where I had to sit down and put into words the anxiety of this milestone. So I typed and typed and typed.
A few years ago I remember hearing about a study that said that women were much happier in their 50's than in any other time in their life. If you are one of those women, please let me know and tell me the secret. Seriously. Because I haven't met many of these women or at least I don't think I have. Maybe we just all have a tendency to talk about problems and not share the joys but 50 something isn't sounding so good. Hot flashes, expanding waistlines, thinning hair, all kinds of far more serious health problems, the challenges of caring for our aging parents, shrinking retirement accounts, etc. etc. My Mother keeps me up to date on the 'sick, dead and dying' report as I call it. She has taken to telling me about everyone she was ever remotely acquainted with that is in the hospital or has died. She has turned into her Mother, I do NOT want to do that!
As I went on and on in my journaling, I realized that most of my anxiety is because I'm happy NOW. I don't want things to change as I fear these aforementioned problems happening to me. I've already seen changes in my body I'm not too excited about. What's next? (And thus the title for the page.)
And so I realized that I need a good dose of Franklin Roosevelt's most famous advice - "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." So it wasn't such a bad prompt. It made me think about something that has been nagging at me for awhile. Hopefully, it will also make me appreciate.
And if you have advice for handling big birthdays, please share. I'm all ears. My eyesight and hearing haven't totally gone yet :-)
For the page, I used up a lot of number Thickers which I hardly ever use on the background. The technque is from Celene Navarro from Two Peas. In addition to mist as she suggested, I used some gelatos for more color. Also I stampted and stenciled with black paint and a piece of drawer liner I got at the dollar store.
The black plastic snowflakes are back for embellishment.
Thanks for visiting today and going on a journey of a less than fun topic.